Showing posts with label desire. Show all posts
Showing posts with label desire. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Desire won...

I did not act on this desire to begin a search for Dorothy until August 2012.  Why?  I was terrified! I was terrified that “if” I found my Mother she would want nothing to do with me.  After all, she gave me away.  I realized that I could not live with myself if I did not find her and I could not live with the regret of never trying to find her. 

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Desire

Fast forward again to January 21, 2012 my 50th birthday, a milestone birthday.  I woke up on this day with an enormous desire in my heart to find my natural Mother.  I believe that it was the Holy Spirit encouraging me to do so on this milestone birthday.  I believe that someone wanted me to find Dorothy (my natural Mother).  Was it God? Jesus? the Holy Spirit? Did Dorothy want to be found and did she encourage the Holy Spirit to place this desire in my heart?  So many questions, so many emotions.